Ordinary Life

Update

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 21:04:02 GMT

Okay, so a lot of my old posts sound like I'm a horrible person...not in love with my husband??? Oh, the horror! Or did that make me the whore? Oh, no, because I wasn't the one cheating! Ha ha! Since then I've learned that the girlfriend from the summer of '01 was named Crystal, I've learned that Dan knew her BEFORE Ted met Mitzi, I've learned that it was Dan that wanted to go out on the bikes trolling for girls all the time instead of Ted (although I'm sure Dan didn't have to twist Ted's arm much). I'm assuming there were other girls. Who knows and I don't want to know. I've heard from 2 people now that Ted was pissed at Dan all this time because Dan blamed everything that happened on him, and that he's always wanted to tell me that it wasn't his fault (and do I really care who was at fault when they both knew right from wrong...not really!) and that Ted would like to tell me what really happened. I haven't heard any of that from Ted but I'm guessing from the 2 people that told me that it's true. Doesn't make a difference anymore. I've bought a house and moved the kids and I out. Dan is moving his girlfriend and her son into our old house. I do wish I knew when exactly he moved in with her because I found out shortly after he moved out of the house that he was living with her...I'm assuming she was someone he knew before we split up. Oh well, that's neither here nor there. Let's see, I *thought* I briefly dated a guy at work after Dan moved out and we were working through the separation but turns out I was just a "friend with benefits". Man, do I HATE that term!!! Unless I know that's what I am and I decide that's okay then it's not okay to be treated that way! I don't like that whole "friends with benefits" thing. Sounds like there's no strings attached but there are! So anyways, we went back to being just friends once I realized I was really that stupid to think there was more, and now we just don't speak at all which is equally okay as well. LOL Then I met the great guy I'm dating now and can't wait to see where that goes!!!

Edited to add: No, I didn't turn into a horrible mis-trusting stalker girlfriend either! ;-)

What if

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 02:40:28 GMT

What if I can't trust anymore? What if I impose my mistrust of intimacy on the next person? I mean, from what I hear I had a reason to mistrust Dan. And I did mistrust him but I needed him more than I didn't trust him so I believed my own little truth. The real truth would've hurt hurt too much at the time.

If someone tells me they want to be with me, how do I know they really do? How do I know it's not just for sex? If someone says they love me, should I believe them? The first time Dan told me he loved me he had already stood me up for the evening and then I saw him cruise through town with his supposedly ex-girlfriend in his car and the man had the audacity to wave! That takes some serious balls, ya gotta give him that. I was pissed. I went home and he showed up. I tried to ignore him but what the heck was it that ultimately made me let him in? I even saw a hotel receipt from a night he spent with her, which he subsequently denied of course (yes, he got her a room but he didn't stay. huh???), and I still held onto him. Did I find myself that unworthy of someone more worthy?

So when someone new doesn't call or doesn't text am I going to wonder who they're with or what they're doing? I don't like insecure people so why on earth am I becoming one? It scares me to turn into something I loathe. I don't want to be the girlfriend who stalks her boyfriend to see what he's doing or who he's with. I have better things to do with my time! Say nothing about the stress that can cause I'm sure. I've never been a stalker but I'm sure there's a lot of anxiety there. And what if I see him talking to another girl? Am I going to automatically assume that he's cheating? This is SO NOT me! But now that I've become this person can I go back to the person I was? Or am I going to be psyco-girlfriend???

All these years

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 18:39:29 GMT

All these years...

you let me think I was the only one
you let me bear your children
...one daughter, 2 sons
you questioned everything I did
you questioned every move I made
you questioned every friend I had
you never wanted to be social and hang out with anyone
...no, you never wanted US to hang out with anyone...but you did hang out with your friends
you needed to know where I'd been
you came and went as you pleased & I never "needed" to know where you were or what you were doing
your money was yours and my money was ours
you pretended to be the model husband
you snuck around
you hid money
you never shared
you treated me like a common whore
all these years and YOU were the one cheating

Numb

Wed, 23 May 2007 20:53:36 GMT

I think the truth is that I just don't care anymore. Dan has been talking about trading his street bike for a Mustang and since I've been told that I'm not allowed to say anything about what he buys/sells/trades anymore, I just kept my mouth shut. He even asked me if I thought it was a good deal, I told him simply that I don't have an opinion because he's told me that I'm not allowed. Monday night he drove off on the bike and drove home in the Mustang. I thought hey, as long as it's even-up and no payments I really don't mind. Then I find out that he traded his 4-wheeler (that he HAD to have back and we had to use money from the sale of the garage to buy!!!) along with the bike for the Mustang. And it's not really even so much that he did it...it's that he #1 didn't tell me he was and #2 still hasn't said a word about it. I had to find out from his mom!!! Why is it a secret from me? I mean, I have no say in the matter anyways, right? I don't like being lied to. And I want to be pissed about it, I mean really pissed because that would at least mean I cared right? But I guess I don't even care enough to get really pissed at him for lying to me. How sad is that? It's like I'm numb! And it sucks to be numb in your marriage.

Wed, 16 May 2007 21:01:54 GMT

Why oh why does my husband find it necessary to hoard money and be so secretive about it??? So very frustrating! He's been out of town and comes home tonight and I don't even look forward to seeing him. That is so very wrong, I know. I keep finding money stashed in his dresser and yes, I know I shouldn't be looking...so I can't even mention it to him because obviously I shouldn't know it's there. I guess it'd be like the time I found the condom in his wallet (and we didn't need them, believe me) and did I get an apology from him? And explanation? No, I got yelled at for looking! DUH! The blame lies on me for not saying more about it, but I let it go. I'm just tired.

Summer of 2001 revisited...

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 18:57:30 GMT

Although it's going to piss me off.

So I'm pregnant during the summer of 2001 and Dan tells me that this new friend of his has a pregnant girlfriend and maybe we should hang out while the guys go riding. Sure, sounds great. I meet her and we realize that we've actually worked together before at a previous job, cool! We're still very very close friends to this day, I love her to death. Then Dan tells me that he feels so bad for this poor guy because he's not in love with his girlfriend but that he's stuck with her because she's pregnant...well, poor baby, learn to keep it in your pants then! Anyways, the guys go riding EVERY night that it's not raining, and I do mean every night, that's not a lie. But I'm a patient girl, also pregnant, so what am I gonna do...leave? Ha! But if I make any remark whatsoever about him being gone all the time he gets pissed so pretty soon I learn to keep it to myself and let him do whatever he wants. Even if it involves letting him out until 3:30 in the morning even though the bars close at 2:00. That wouldn't be bad if I hadn't known what a slime-ball of a friend he had! But I knew his friend cheated on his girlfriend on a regular basis. Then I start hearing that Dan and his friend have met 2 girls, although Dan says he has no idea what I'm talking about. My friend says he was with when her boyfriend met this one girl, and that this girl has a friend for Dan...and the guys go over to visit them. Dan denies it, of course. What choice do I have but to believe him? I have no proof. Then there was the CD full of love songs that his friend Jason supposedly burned for him. I asked where he got it, "oh, Jason made that for me for riding in the Jeep". Cool, till I listen to it. Sappy love songs, country songs...stuff Jason doesn't listen to and I'm sure wouldn't burn onto a CD for a male friend! Now, does he really think I'm that stupid? And again, I don't say anything. Then comes the condom in the wallet that I was told he was just holding for a friend because his friend didn't want to get caught with it. Oh, and what, I was going to be understanding if I found a condom in my hubby's wallet while I was pregnant??? But of course, you guessed it, I kept my mouth shut. He told me that if he was going to be cheating on me, he'd be smarter than to leave a condom where I could find it. Good, that makes me feel better...NOT! Then came the day that my friend went to visit her boyfriend at work, which was also where Dan worked. Her boyfriends' latest slut that Dan has supposedly never met, walked in while my friend and Dan were chatting, waiting for her boyfriend to come out. And get this, Dan says hi to this girl...uses her first name! Must have ESP to have guessed that one, huh? Right! I never even questioned him on that because I knew I'd get some lame ass excuse. And when I wanted Dan to go out and do something with Dana and I he was either too tired or he had to go riding...or even better yet, he was too tired until someone pulled up out front on a bike and then WHAM his energy level just skyrocketed. He told me that I needed to get a life, make some friends, or get a new hobby. He even spent our anniversary with his friend...and couldn't understand why I was upset.

Later during my pregnancy, my baby was diagnosed with HLHS, AVSD, and CoArc. My dwindling little world came to an end. Then Dan was supportive and ultimately Adam's death brought us closer together for a little while. But I will never EVER forget the way I was treated that summer. And I know it's my fault that things are the way they are presently because I learned to just keep my mouth shut because it gets me nowhere with him, other than his ability to make me feel worse.

That being said, I'm glad I got it out. It still irritates me and what really drives me nuts is that he thinks things are perfectly fine...which I know is also my fault.

Weekend...at last!

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 17:05:34 GMT

Okay, so here I am at work, but that's okay, 2 minutes till quittin' time! Gotta write here though so no trail on the home computer. Hehe

Finally some nice weather! Can't wait to get out and enjoy it...maybe tomorrow. Dana's having a friend over this afternoon so they can practice for a concert next Wednesday. I soooooooo wanted to go to Erie but oh well, maybe tomorrow. Going to mom & dad's tomorrow for fried turkey...yum yum! Mom's inviting gramma & gramps, Aunt Bon & Dickie, and of course my brother and Heather. I'm hoping at least gramma & gramps show up...Bon & Dickie probably won't...don't know if Scott will w/o Heather, and she's feeling sick (can't imagine why!). I'm going with or without Dan...I'm not giving up deep fried turkey just because he's feeling anti-social!!!

Soooooo wish I could just talk to him and straight up tell him how I feel. But I know I'll get blasted and I have a lot to lose if he walks away. Not in losing him, but in losing possibly my kids (although I think they'd have to prove me to be unfit and Lord knows I'm fit! LOL) and my cute little house (tho there are other houses and a bigger one would be nice) and who knows what else. I'd feel sad if he left, but it wouldn't ruin my life. It'd be a little bit of a relief actually, although I'd never tell him that!!! Someday I'll grow a pair of balls and stand up for my feelings! Yeah right! Especially when I KNOW I could be happy elsewhere with someone else......... But that's another topic for another day! I gotta run...time to go home!

Well, that sucks...

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 20:44:44 GMT

I decided to try and talk to hubby about what's bothering me on Tuesday and now he won't speak to me anymore. I told him that I needed more help with the kids around the house, that he basically comes and goes as he pleases and assumes that I'll be there to watch the kids...which I will anyways but it'd be nice if it wasn't always assumed that I had no life while he does what he wants. He informed me that he does about half the housework (huh???) and doesn't come and go as he pleases (again I say huh???). I tried to talk to him but he wanted to fight and I would rather discuss so I was told that I'm so stupid I don't even know how to fight (a third huh goes here). So he sleeps on the couch and doesn't speak to me even when I speak to him or ask a question...and half the time doesn't speak to the kids. This morning he left without saying goodbye to Dana even. And believe me, she noticed! Yesterday he waited till I opened the garage door and then went out the front door to get in his car and leave. Yup, real mature I know. I tried to text his phone and explain what I really needed from him, specifically but I don't think it helped. All he got out of our conversations somehow was that I wanted him to do his own laundry (do I really need to add a huh here). Laundry was never mentioned and the whole idea is lame because I still have to do the kids' and my laundry anyways. Oh well, I tried...he's stubborn...what did I expect. I've also been told that I am never allowed to question a purchase he makes ever again (why bother with another huh).

I'm all outta love...

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 14:27:23 GMT

No, I won't sing, I promise you wouldn't want that. I used to think it was a lame excuse when married people got divorced because they fell outta love. Fell outta love for goodness sake! How ridiculous, right? No. I truly think it's possible and happens more than I think. So the ultimate question is this: Do you stay together because you're married and marriage is forever and there's nothing truly wrong with your partner, or do you go your separate ways and seek happiness? What if one partner is happy and the other is just "there"?

Check it out

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 20:43:38 GMT

www.sickpuppies.net
Love their music!

We sold the garage because we had bills we needed to pay off and Dan wanted to be home more. Now he's telling me that he found a garage to rent for $100 a month. Lemme just say right now that I'm not footin' that bill. He makes way more than $100 a month at the garage even though sometimes I pay the L&L Auto bill for paint, etc. I guess I seriously thought things were going to change. And he's going to do more riding this summer too. If this is anything like the summer of 2001 where he was out every night, even when he told Dana and I that he was too tired to do anything with us, and didn't come home until 3:00 in the morning and got upset if I asked where he was or gave any indication that I was less than happy.....then I won't be around for another summer. The sad part is that he thinks our relationship is just great but only because he doesn't take me seriously when I'm upset about something....or we talk and then things don't change. We'll see....

Like my mom said this weekend, he's just like my father...either I get used to it or get over it. She said to do something now before I'm unhappy for the next 30 years...I think she was implying that she's been unhappy but I would hate to think that my parents marriage is anything but blissful so I'll live in ignorance :-)

Afraid of change

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 20:01:48 GMT

Not happy, but afraid of change. I have 2 beautiful children but wonder if I'm still in love with their father. He's a good guy, he's good with the kids. Maybe it's because he's not home much, or at least not till the kids go to bed. He's missing out! But if he was home all the time would I be any happier? I've always said I don't believe in divorces unless there's abuse going on but I've always been in love with my husband. I don't know what's changed recently but sometimes I just don't want him around. That's the sad, pitiful truth. I keep waiting for my feelings to change but most of the time I'd be perfectly happy with just me and the kids. That is so wrong because he hasn't done anything to deserve it. I know I'll just stick it out because I'm afraid of change and especially confrontation. I'm just not happy and I can't expect him to change to make me happy (and I don't know that that would even be a solution since the problem lies within me) because that's not his job. He's not making me unhappy, I'm just not happy.

I'm so torn because I know I could be happy on my own...but I couldn't do that to him. Is it worth being unhappy to make someone else happy? I think I'd be unhappy to know that I made him miserable.

Pity Party's Over

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 16:00:27 GMT

Okay, yesterday I was certainly feeling sorry for myself. I know how my hubby is and I know he's not going to change and I also don't believe in trying to change your mate to please yourself. He's the same person I married, it's just his spontenaety (sp???) with money now drives me nuts. No, it hasn't taken me 13 years to figure this out...we just make more money now which means more for him to spend. And I know if I went out and bought something that I *thought* I really *needed* that he wouldn't say anything about it. I'm happy with what I have though and I know that buying something isn't going to bring me any more than the temporary joy you feel when you get something new. My most valuable (and expensive) possession is my KitchenAid stand mixer...couldn't live without it. It's a kitchen necessity to me along with the stove, refrigerator, sink, dishwasher, etc. But I didn't buy it, it was a gift from my parents. I wanted one for a long time but couldn't bring myself to spend that kind of money on myself...is that wrong? I guess as long as I have enough to pay my monthly bills I should be happy. It would just be sooooooooo very nice to have a little extra to save up and do something with! Dream on!

I wanna be single

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 19:33:54 GMT

I can't talk to my hubby anymore. He's not a bad guy, he just doesn't want to hear me. I'm tired of him spending money like we own a money-tree. We have bills to pay and credit cards to pay off. Two weeks ago he has the balls to tell me that paying bills is his #1 priority even thought it's not mine. Not mine?????? I PAY THE BILLS! He has no idea what money goes in and what goes out. The only money I spend is on gas, groceries, and the babysitter. Not once have I bought a motorcycle, a 4 wheeler, a truck, a car, a dirtbike, or anything that costs over $100 unless it's a grocery or childcare bill. So a week after he says that he spends the $200 that was supposed to pay for my van repair to buy a dirt bike (yup, that'll make the van run better). And I ask why he hasn't taken the truck he sold off of the car insurance and he tells me it's because he's buying a car. Oh, okay. That was Friday. He tells me Friday night that he had to buy the dirtbike because his buddy needed the money. This same buddy that was in such dire need of money is now going to buy our lawn mower for $1100 this week! Musta hit the jackpot! Then he says last night that since he sold the lawnmower (which I just paid off the $700 balance for) he is going to take that money and 1/2 of the tax return money and buy his 4-wheeler back (he's buying it for $2200, he sold it to the same guy for $1800 so I guess we're paying the guy $400 for 2 months of storage??). But HIS #1 priority is paying off bills. Guess I should be glad it's not his #2 priority! I'm guessing his first priority is really himself.

Need a hug?

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 21:04:29 GMT

BRRRRRRRR

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 13:55:46 GMT

I actually had to turn the furnace on at work! Imagine that! I got in this morning and I swear there were icicles hanging from my computer screen. Went down the hall to the conference room because it seemed like there was a breeze blowing in from there and sure enough the windows were wide open and the rain was just blowing in. That's always good for the brand new carpet! HA! And I get yelled at for opening my office window on a stuffy day to let a breeze in. Oh well, the big boss is on vacation and out of town for the week so I cranked up the heat. It's almost getting warm in here as I'm typing this...nice!

Another busy day of doing actual work, blah. Guess someone's gotta, Lord knows the other salesperson isn't making any money for us. He makes a $2,000 profit on a job, which was nice, but then he was upset and saying that we "raped" this guy and our prices were too high. So then the next 4 jobs he proceeds to adjust his pricing (because he supposedly has all this experience, hahaha) and loses money on ALL 4 JOBS! What an idiot. Oh well, I guess at least I make some money here....I just don't brag about it so I don't think the boss even knows...I know he never asks me or anyone in accounting so how could he know? Lucky for me, I keep a running tab of all my sales from year to year so if he ever were to actually ask me I'd have a quick answer for him!

Alrighty, back to the daily grind. Speaking of grind, I could sure use some coffee! Luckily, I get free coffee from the bakery up the street because we are affiliated with them...all of us that work at the cabinet shop get free coffee. Just what I need, and a nice perk! Teehee Oops, speaking of perk...I gotta go get that coffee. C-ya!

peace

It sure feels like a Monday...

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 14:40:35 GMT

I must actually stay off LJ, EW and Cake Central today and do some work IRL...
Gotta be a bookworm today!

Happy Hump Day!

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 20:37:34 GMT

Bra eftermiddag!

Gotta love these short weeks that fly by! I thought all day yesterday was Monday and told my daughter that there was no cheerleading practice for a couple more nights and she said "you mean tomorrow night"...to which I replied "no, thursday night" DUH!

Dana started middle school yesterday. Big change from my middle school! They actually have periods like the high school does! She changes rooms throughout the day which means that she needs to drag her BG meter and a snack with her everywhere she goes...but they don't take their backpacks or anything. I told her she'll have to bring her meter case from home that looks like a purse...the no one will question what she's carrying around with her. She doesn't want anyone to know that she has Juvenile Diabetes. Today she didn't have her snack with her during math class and felt like she was going low but didn't say anything because she was afraid to interrupt the teacher. So she waited it out and had to have a friend help her back to her locker because she couldn't walk on her own at that point. Crazy kid!!! I scolded her good over the phone (not enough to make her cry, thank God) and told her that I don't care where she is or what she's doing, if she needs to eat or have juice then so be it! She's embarrassed to eat in front of the kids she doesn't know but I keep telling her "imagine how much more embarrassing it'll be when you pass out and they have to call an ambulance!". Or if they have to use Glucagon to get her blood sugar up because she's semi-conscious and then she pukes all over....yeah, that'd be embarrassing. Poor kid! Like kids don't have enough things to deal with or enough self-esteem problems...she's gotta deal with this too. I keep telling my hubby that things could be worse...she could have been diagnosed with cancer or something else equally scary. We can handle this, it's just so hard to have to control when and how much she eats and then make sure that she's had enough to eat and also to have to trust her care to a bunch of teachers that have no idea how to take care of her! I've sent info to school, but I don't think a lot of them take it seriously because their ________ (fill in the blank: aunt, uncle, mother, father, friend, husband, wife) has/had Diabetes and just took a pill to control it. Well sorry people, Juvenile Diabetes doesn't work that way...she takes 3 shots of insulin a day and tests her blood sugar 5-8 times a day. And with hormones making a mess of everything you never know where her blood sugar will be! She could eat the same things and take the same insulin 2 days in a row and be in range one day and way off the scale the next. Go figure!

Okay, enough over-protective-mothering for now!
peace

Monday again...

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 17:41:53 GMT

So here we are at Monday again. In typical Monday style, I couldn't roll my behind out of bed this morning. Got to work and had to babysit one of the shop guys for a while. I don't know if he was hung-over or just getting senile, but he kept repeating himself till I finally said "what is it you need from me right now???". So he proceeded to ask me a question that I had already answered for him twice in this same conversation, then blamed me for not telling him something I told him 3 months ago! Oh well, can't win sometimes. So I just apologized because I know it's a LOT easier than arguing or reminding him of what I told him 3 months ago since he's not obviously going to remember anyways! Grrr!

On a better note, my friend Shelly is back to work for the school year...I missed my email buddy! And she's pregnant....I'm sort of jealous (yes, call me crazy) but I am happy for her because she is such a good mommy. She has 2 of the cutest little ones. Maddox turns 3 next month (which starts at the end of the week I might remind you) and Abby turns 5 soon after. Scary! To think that Shelly and I were pregnant together before and that my little Adam would also be turning 5 this year. Time flies! I look at Abby and see all the things that Adam would be doing and smile......

peace

I hate migraines, but I love Blogthings!

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 18:58:44 GMT

You Are Incredibly Logical

(You got 88% of the questions right)

Move over Spock - you're the new master of logic

You think rationally, clearly, and quickly.

A seasoned problem solver, your mind is like a computer!

How Logical Are You?

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Lazy Mathematician.

Where You Lived: Mexico.

How You Died: The Plague.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

How depressing is that???

Your Sexy Brazilian Name is:

Iolanda Montenegro

What's Your Sexy Brazilian Name?

peace,
Iolanda

Busy Day!

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 14:15:23 GMT

I love busy days at work...although it does give me less online time, hehe. I have a nice sized custom cabinetry order to place and a few quotes to do. We are now opening a paint store so we are all going to learn about the paints. Lucky for me I was a custom paint gal in my former life. It was one of my absolute favorite jobs because #1) I'm good at matching color by eye, it may sound easy but not everyone can do it, and #2) most male contractors just hated knowing the fact that their paint was mixed by a "girl". They used to come in to where I used to work and wait in long lines to talk to one of "the guys" while I stood idly by. The best part was when one of "the guys" would turn the order over to me to make it! LMAO And I would write the paint color or formula on the lid in my most girliest handwriting so they KNEW I mixed it. I had several contractors apologize to me for not giving me a chance. And now it looks like I'll have a chance to do it again. The cool thing is that we're taking on Pratt and Lambert paints (great stuff!) and I already know the line! Lovin' it!!! Unfortunately I probably won't be making much because I'll be busy with my regular job, but I have a feeling that our current receptionist is going to be doing most of the customer service and paint mixing...that scares me to death! Don't get me wrong, she is a wonderful, sweet, caring person...just not the brightest crayon in the box. We'll have to see how all that works out!
peace

Reached my quota!!!

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 17:48:34 GMT

OMG, I have filled my quota of dealing with brainless people today! I actually filled it by 10:30 this morning, yet here I am still behind my desk. I seriously think there should be a limit of how many dimwits a person should have to deal with a day. Seems fair to me!

The guy out back in the wood shop is building a custom piece for the showroom. I gave him approximate dimensions, ideas on wood species, construction ideas, and told him to be creative. Basically I didn't have time to do a detailed drawing and since it's not for a customer it doesn't have to be anything specific...just a time filler for him. Now I'm doing some serious babysitting and hand-holding because he can't think for himself. Uuuugggghhhhh! The other guy in the shop would be thrilled with the idea of having creative license, but of course, he's easier to deal with so he's always busy and I'm always trying to come up with filler work for the other guy (not sure when that because my job description).

Then, we just hired a receptionist about 2 months ago (I've been here 5 years and we've never had one). We thought it would be nice to have someone full-time in the showroom and to answer the phones so we don't constantly have to stop working to go find someone to take a phone call (usually a personal call for the idiot out back, go figure!). Very handy! But she's taking the afternoon off and is all worried about no one "manning" the desk downstairs. Gosh, what ever shall we do??? Probably ought to shut down for the rest of the day...how will the business operate without her here to sit at her desk??? I don't know how we ever made it 5 years without her! Golly gee whiz! (Okay, I'll drop the sarcasm)

Okay, I feel better now after venting.

Have a LOVELY day y'all and a great weekend as I don't have internet at home (why should I when it's free at work???)

peace

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 16:49:32 GMT

Nifty neato.

I'm sitting at my desk eating my lunch (I know..."loser") and typing in my first journal entry. Always thought a journal would be cool but didn't know what to write...I guess time will tell!